Unsent Letter (poem)

I watch your photos every minute
and talk to you in silence
Time tells me you can't hear me
because you're gone

...you maybe gone in one of its ticks but
not in every beat of my heart.

I miss you terribly...

I'm well...
it only hurts...
when I breath...

thinking of you;
the one i believed
my soul mate.

When you came into my life
i told myself i would
love you and never
will I forsake you.

You were my best friend,
my dream come true..
my everything...

until yesterday you said,
"Us is finished."

It unfolds the truth about
how you really feel inside-
You never really loved me.

It was easy for you to leave
without saying to me eye to eye
the word "goodbye"

My life has changed at that very moment
I forget the works i need to do...
i found myself on the floor,
crying hard..yelling..why???

I am alright...
it only hurts...
when I breath and
revive the time
you promised
to take good care of my heart

You've taught me how to value myself
the moment you put me on pedestal
if only I knew,last tuesday night
would be our last night together
I should have held you tight...

Now i'm back again...
to the place where you once took me...

whence could I mend
this bruised heart
when it feels like
it can't love again?

The grief i am feeling
is unending.

The Dark Tableau

The night I meet you
I love you in ways more
than one
I have recognize the essence of my
life,I have come across
a world that's ethereal,
thanks to you.

I evermore envision our love
won't last...

This is a melancholic parting...

My love,wherever you are
I hope you are happy with your decesion...

and me,here I am
hurting...
abandoned...

How can I consign to oblivion?
How can I start over...
anew...?

You wont have the idea of my life,
falling apart...

I know I cant have you back
and I wont be seeing you for the rest of my life.

Things,songs,poems,words...
carry me back to the sunlights and
nights we had...

and the time you took dim view
of my love's intention for you
and left...

The silence reminds me of all the
sorrow...
torment...
tribulations...

I will be suffering in silence
'til silence give up and
ditch me too...

but my love,i wont stop loving you.

The Black Demise

I gaze in the murky skyline,
I remember the Night,we had walked
and experienced its enchantiing powers
I felt the assurance in your eyes
that tells me to believe in love.

And in every point in time,I
dive to the honesty of your words
Now i couldnt look straight
to the somber horizon
because my love...

You are not here
and will never be with me again
It's only me and my broken heart
If only you will feel
the pain in every cries when I think of you,
the words in my heart that remains unspoken
But my love,you are not here.

I wish you'll try to close your eyes
and listen to the desire of your heart
eventhough the pains blocked my heart
and the wall of our seperation is thick,
I never stop thinking and loving you
and...

if you found someone who loves you
makes sure that she'll stay until the end of time
because my heart will be torn apart
If i will know you're not being cared and loved.

My next days will be darker than tonight
knowing that I wont be able to wake up in your arms
My cold palms slowly wipe my tears
In a glimpse of Us that will never be again...

Here i am wandering in a serpentine road
emotionally and mentally beaten
Feeling and counting my salted wounds at 26

I decided to stay away and perished
 in the clouds of painful existence.

My Dying Romance

Love is a sphere

it never ends;

and when the feeling is right

I breath him again and again

Two hearts designed

to be as one and then

when confusion comes

it drives me like insane

I had given my best

but then...

Im not the one he wished for him...

It was two hearts so perfect

like nothing could come in between

but then...

he was gone...

never care to see my tears

If i drown myself in misery tonight

and douse my heart in livid ebony skies

will my tears stop to fall?

.....I love him with my all.

A Glimpse of Althea's Yesterday

A GLIMPSE OF ALTHEA'S YESTERDAY
(the battle against Dengue Fever-true story)


As daylight starts to wane
so as the strenght in her eyes
No more voice could be heared
from what was once a pinkish lips
that turned into a deathly sallow.


Ebon clouds seems so strong,
coating the vastness of heaven
Skyline to skyline looks like
no dimutive ray of light to be seen.


She started to puke and excrete
copper-colored vital fluid and
her mother that held her dearly
silently scream inside at her guise;
swollen muscles,pale face...ailing.


Her blood platelet counts drop
From hospital to hospital they travel
to save her precious life.
The poor litte girl Althea...
fighting with her best to live.


Night descends slowly
and every minute that pass was
a torture to the hearts of her family.
Will she make it?
The doctor said it was a fifty-fifty chance.


Sweat mixed with nervous rise
permeating the air of the corridor
outside the crowded Emergency Room
The long hours of the evening
wrapped everyone in its bejeweled onyx cloak.


Such strength shrink
in the transcendental darkness
As series of test was being conducted
lively voices stumble...sweet words
invades the thoughts of many...
A glimpse of Althea's yestersday...


A cheerful Althea completely different
from the girl lying on the stretcher
The moment was...falling...losing...
until...the cockcrowing came and
Althea's blood platelets rise.....living...

A Love Letter to Stewart 50

The lights fall
taken away by the darkness
kaleidoscopic images of
blissful events
and beneficent people
flow in constant stream;
a train of colorful moments
changing levels
with every little twist
of latent cerebration.


My mettle glows,rises...
perplexing emotion cascaded
in every atom of my nerves,
sending quivers to the sheets;
a silent witness to passion.


An irrisistable fire ablaze
in a second that
your elbow ignites in mine...
soultry whispers
filled the night...
in every torrid kisses,
pungent touches,
fiery strokes...


two lusciuos bodies
burning fervor,
emitting love,
desiring...

under the metaphorical heaven,
another heavenly,
valued...
and psychedelic moment
has been added
to my cognizance.

A Love Letter to Stewart 49

What else could I do to prove the depths of the love i have for you?


I would willingly jump in a troubled river,neglect the great risk of hitting the big stones that creates small and big waves,wherein its sound ruins the deafining silence of the sorroundings.

I would lovingly hold you andpull you up,rescue you from drowning in a muddy water.

In the name of our love,I will risk my life,shed my blood if needed,to hold hope,peace and happiness in my hands and offer to you...for the wolrd to see that beyond your loving smiles,beyond your saddest sighs...beyond words is my undying love for you.